Handling Disappointment
May has been such a weird month for me. It seems as its getting closer to summer, my schedule is filling up quicker. I kind of miss the days where I was in school longing for summer break! However, this month has also brought some disappointments as well. This post came to me when I lay in bed wide awake at 3am so please bear with me if I ramble.
I’m not one to feel bad for myself just for the heck of it. I try my absolute hardest to see the positive of every situation and continue forward. Yet, doesn’t it seem like life sometimes hits you back to back?
Other things have been happening in my life but instructor tryouts kind of shifted everything for me. When I didn’t advance if the tryout progress, I went numb. I honestly believed that it wouldn’t have an impact on me because I tried out on a whim. Yet, I drove home in a daze. I didn’t really know how to vocalize my feelings and I still don’t. Have you ever worked so hard for something only to have complete strangers not understand? Since then, I learned that no one made it through to the training process but that didn’t really change the way I felt
Yesterday, I began to look for another job. My company is changing very much and j believe I have outgrown my position there. I expressed these feelings to my boss only to be coddled and be given more (hopefully not empty) promises. It’s tough because working at this place was a joy at once but it’s just different now.
What do you do when life hands you blow after blow? I used to use those feelings to push myself on runs but that’s not really an option now. I worked out yesterday afternoon but left the gym feeling so defeated. Am I supposed to stay in this little feeling bubble until I feel it’s time to come out? Or should I fake it until I’m happy again?
If you made it this far, I truly thank you. I know this is a change from the typical posts but I just wanted to share a little bit of my personal side with you. The internet is a great place to see everyone’s highlight reel but I want to be completely honest with everyone. My challenge for you today is to be kind to everyone you come in contact with today because you never know what they’re dealing with!
